the journey of my life...

w - h - y

2009-01-28T19:44:00.000-08:00

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

passing of another crossroad~

2009-01-08T01:08:00.000-08:00

Trapped in the dark abyss
With the silent symphony playing endlessly
The only hope is lost itself
Or so I thought

Without a warning.. without a sign..
The darkness was broken apart
Blinding everything in its sight
Truth was its name, shining with all its might

Looking around aimlessly
Familiar roads are all I see
Recollecting my senses and my wits
Continues down this road just a bit

Being forsaken was a fault
Truth was oversight of a predilection
Worn out by this unforeseen journey
Loss of drive was the result

With no more crossroads in sight
One clear path was all up ahead
Turning back isn't allow in the play
The direction was evident as the way

Pitiful it may seems to be
Nevertheless understandings gained was aplenty
This gratitude I must show
For now the choice is up to me...

the solitudinous symphony~

2009-01-03T11:51:00.000-08:00

Wandering around aimlessly..
Without a peek of light, lost is the only option..
Darkness covers the entire surrounding as though contrast doesnt exist...
Nothing but emptiness was around..
Nothing can be felt.. not even a single touch
Nothing can be heard.. not even you scream your lungs out
Nothing can be seen.. not even a tiniest bit of light
There isn't anywhere to go.. no exits..

Torn between right and desire..
Unable to cope up with the frustation building up inside..
Jealousy being the mastermind.. dissolving everything that's inside..
Stubbornly decided to chase 2 rabbits..
Disappointed with the foreseen results..
Here.. begging for another chance..
Though the end will be the same even if given another..
Pathetic..

No longer has anything to hold on to..
No longer has anything to believe in anymore..
No longer has anything to look forward to..

Troubling thoughts clouding the mind..
Jealousy burns the heart..
On the edge of losing everything.. Or did everything is already lost from the start?
Is it all just a coincidence? Or is it a curse that had to be beared?
Without a clue.. Maybe it is easier to leave everything behind before they are taken away..
Nothing's left besides this solitudinious symphony..
Its endless and soundless screams~

a new year...a new resolution~

2009-01-01T13:46:00.000-08:00

HAPPIE NEW YEAR EVERYONE~!!! lol... yea...a new year...a new everything~ or not? anyway...i m sure everyone has their ups and downs for this new year...and that doesnt exclude me~ haha... well...things here hav been fine now tat the holiday has started~ XD *sigh* havent had a holiday for ages dy~ however...unfortunately..there is final coming soon... things havent been really easy...
so...js alil stressed out... haha wanna release some stress here~ XD
hmmm...i guess everyone has a time like this when..they js feel like telling everyone how they are feeling rite now...but js cant say it out ne? well..guess this time its me who has been feeling so lately.... therefore..wanna js spam it out loud here~ lol

As the time passes...we tend to look back at the past...the distance that we had travelled...
The long path that we took to come all the way here...never thought we would end up here...
Looking at myself now...never understanding where this path may lead me to... continues walking on this path...hoping...wishing silently that its the place that I saw in my dreams...my destination...
Whatever it may be...I had never regretted taking this path of mine... picked up a few lessons here and there... learning... understanding... how it feels to go through it all...
Getting through continuous hardships...endless tests & trials....
Failing and falling hard at times... so hard and deep that it could bring anyone down to their knees...and never be able to stand up again...
For there was this light...putting me back on my feet...reassuring me to continue my journey...making me believed that there is a worthwhile reward in the end...
Toughen up...I begin to continue to walk this path of mine...no longer afraid to fall or get hurt...as long as the light stays there for me...
Looking down the endless path down my way...its uncertain for sure what lies ahead of me...
This time...without a doubt...I'll strive for what I want...

ah~ *relief* finally able to let go of everything…been holding them inside for ages~ now feel alil more relieved~ haha~
anyway…will try to update my blog more often now~(lol…yea…js hope tat will happen) XD
and and…to all my frens out there…take k and good luck in ur upcoming exams~! Cheerz~!

milo....in kursk?!

2008-10-27T14:37:00.000-07:00

yo everyone~! 1st of all....gomen~! sry~!! for not updating my blog so long..... yeah...i know...its been ages since i updated...can see the cobwebs hanging all ard my blog...

well anyway...i wanna wish all my indian frens out there.. Happie Deepavali~!! XD

so so...anyway... as for the reason why havent i been blogging for such a long time is becos... i had been bz wif studies...yea...seriously... XD though maybe alot of u out wouldnt believe this...but yeah...its quite true... 3rd year of medicine isnt as easy as the past 2 years... its as hard as my senior told me last year... (and yea...now that they are in 4th year...those are bz finding stuffs to do to fill up their empty time...chis..) sigh...cant wait to get to 4th year.... XD

things here...havent been really that interesting lately...except...oh yea... for the fact that our well-known fren here aka sushi chong has managed to open his own cafeteria here in kursk~! XD a round of applause to him pls~ he was always well known for his sushi sales here in kursk~ since sushi is sort of a "imported" food frm japan... the price of sushi in a local russian sushi bar here... isnt really that cheap... for u guys who doesnt know...its ard rm20 for oni like...4 rolls of sushi? so therefore.. sushi chong has started his own sushi business here in kursk hostel...and managed to make it big and now...a cafeteria of his own targeting on not only locals but mainly msians studying there.... eventhough its a shared business wif a local russian in a small rented shop down the streets of sadovaya...he actually even managed to brought over milo into his small business.. its not much but definitely a good start for him~ ppl in kursk...pls do try to support him k?

as for me...nothing much changed....still alive and kicking...fortunately... so so...when i m not tat busy...i'll promise to keep my blog more updated and alive~ (cobwebs free~) though i cant 100% guarantee it...but still i will try my best it update more frequently~

so thats all for now~

pyramid spree~ XD

2008-09-01T10:02:00.000-07:00

the last few days of my life..opss...i mean...of my days in malaysia....before going back to russia on the 3rd sept...which is way too soon...haiz..dun feel like going back yet...feel like enjoying myself more 1st XD

anyway...like my post title stated...been going to pyramid alot lately...haha... went there yesterday wif uncle tan and auntie kim... but...the plan didnt go as smoothly as we thought....

Our main objective : To go to sunway's extreme theme park~

uncle 1st suggested this idea...to go play go kart...(1stly me and auntie tot its one of the lagoon's theme park but finally realised its another extreme theme park in sunway) plan was to meet up at 12.30pm and go main go kart...tapi...due to "unforeseen" traffic jams and pyramid's extremely full parking for tat day...we ended up meeting at 2.30pm...uncle said...takleh la...so late dy...rugi oh...so so..ended up tak pigi...haha..so so...mission 1....failed~!

2nd backup plan : Lets go for some movies instead~

we then divert to the cinemas to look for some nice show to watch...but ended up din go for any shows....cos no nice movies showing in the cinemas...or maybe our timing isnt js right... so... *buu buu* mission 2....failed~!

3rd backup plan : Eh? The new pyramid's archery centre opened dy hor?

we got excited again after 2 letdowns...talking and laughing while discussing bout which 1 of our photo to put on the target area...upon reaching there...*disappointed* sumhow the range for the targets has reduced to a mere 5m instead of 10m last time...and to make up for the reduced distance...they actually use smaller targets.... most likely reason for this? last time area too big...rent = too high...customer = too few....as a result...reduced space.. =.= space reduced...but price not reduced..so... no...not passu~ next~~~ mission 3...failed...

4rd backup plan : Aiya..go bowling lor~

and thats how we ended up bowling...haha....and it turned out to be fun! haha...uncle was making all sorts of poses....like like...a strike pose...a spare pose...a failed spare pose...and even a gutter ball for each of us with uncle's post being the most unique and the funniest~ auntie was rite...shud hav brought the camera...then can post some of the poses here...haha..and thats how the mission finally succeeded...lol

then today...went to pyramid again...to have my "final" gathering wif collegemates...today had more ppl than usual....brian, kim, cheek, jennie, wanlin was there.. wasted alil time deciding which movie to watch...ended up going for death race...it was definitely 18SG for this 1...no doubt... movie was nice...specially for those who like cars(not oni sports car) and guns...this is a need-to-watch for them~ (though auntie came out saying she was covering her ears most of the time cos it was too loud and noisy and jennie was covering the eyes most of the time as she find it alil gross..haha) then we went for yumcha session in tanjung...with angel joining us as well...havent seen her like ages...(but at least i still can recognize her haha)

thats all for now~ cheerz~~!

first orchestra...

2008-08-30T06:48:00.000-07:00

yesterday...for the 1st time i attended an orchestra in klcc~ haha.. *proud proud* to be exact its the malaysian philharmonic orchestra (MPO they called it...) went there wif mingshien and shihui.. (thx shi hui for fetching us...alil paiseh..cos carless...haha) the orchestra started at 8.30pm...but mingshien used to work near klcc..kept rushing us to go earlier cos takut jam...which it did...but still we managed to reach there js b4 the seating begins haha...

mingshien actually got us nice quite a nice seating at a box located near the stage...look like a kinda high class seat but actually it oni cost us rm15 each...haha... mingshien being the pro in this kinda stuffs...(cos cos he attended quite a few orchestra dy...me and shi hui are first-timers though) informed me everytime they finished a song and started on a new 1....me...being alil blur of wats happening didnt even realised they started on a new song dy~ haha... he oso tought us alil here and there bout the orchestra...especially the ending part where they will oni stop clapping after like...5mins? =.= (thats certainly 1 part of the orchestra i will remember....haha)

anyway...the orchestra was nice and definitely worth the money... (the music was kinda too soothing at certain part that i actually fell asleep...haha) if u guys had the chance...i would recommend u guys to try attending 1 too~ but definitely for music lovers oni~ haha

journey back to ancient dynasty..

2008-08-24T00:22:00.000-07:00

1st of all...like to apologise for not updating my post for so long...was a lil tired (and alil bit lazy) after coming back frm china...haha...so so...anyway... the trip was fun...visited many places such as... zhuhai, shenzhen, guangzhou, fo shan, xiu heng, and and...oso macau...

i took a few photos here and there...so so... i'll share them wif u here...(so i dun nid to type so much...wahahaha)

Windows of the world

Mini china

Mini forbidden city

Compare the building behind to see how mini it is...

China's bonzai

the scenery of china.....i think... XD

Mermaid of Zhuhai

The biggest arch in asia...the arch of "sun fong shan's garden"

The temple of the ancestors

A night view of the Zhujiang

there u hav it...accidently took those pics in extra high quality...making it ard 3Mb+ per photo.... so so...terpaksa reduce it in size then oni can post it here.... so if there is alil low in quality...u know why la hah... hehe...

besides all that...another incident occur when i was trying to come back frm china...more precisely....frm macau(cos our flight departs frm there) that is...my flight is delayed for slightly over 24hrs due to a typhoon....typhoon Nuri they called it... so so...terpaksa stay overnight in macau for a night....and the tour guide brought us over to the casino(which is wat macau is famous for...) to keep us occupied instead of getting ourselves bored to death in our overpriced hotel room(the hotel price shot up due to the typhoon incident) the casino is actually situated inside a hotel...Venetian hotel they call it...and...i think it shud be a 5 star hotel..sry but no photos of the hotel...

anyway...attached below is the news on the typhoon...taken from:

http://news.xinhuanet.com/english/2008-08/23/content_9666071.htm

NANNING, Aug. 23 (Xinhua) -- Downpours brought by Typhoon Nuri swept south China's Guangdong and Guangxi from Friday to Saturday, but no casualties have been reported.

From 8 a.m. Friday to 2 p.m. Saturday, rainstorms accompanied by winds of up to 68 km per hour, hit the southeastern areas of Guangxi Zhuang Autonomous Region, with the biggest precipitation of 350 mm in Beiliu County, according to the regional meteorological station.

Heavy rain was forecast to continue in the region on Sunday and Monday.

Typhoon Nuri was downgraded to a strong tropical storm on Friday afternoon after it landed in the coastal areas along Sai Kung of Hong Kong. The storm made another landfall in southern Guangdong late on Friday, packing winds of up to 90 km per hour

Heavy clouds are seen over the skyline in Zhuhai, south China's Guangdong Province, Aug. 22, 2008. (Xinhua Photo)

so so...thats all for this post...i'll try to keep my blog updated frequently...thx to those who support me in making this blog~ =)

free at last~!!

2008-08-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

yesh~!! i m now is a free man~! XD no more attachey~!! no nid to go back to that rotting place dy~ wahahahaha~! i m not gonna go back to that hospital anymore...well...at least not that department~ ughhh~ anyway...luckily that department still got a lenglui doc there to see see...or else i would hav self-changed the department myself~ muahahahahaha~ XD

these fews day might not be able to blog so much...thx to the streamyx giving me such a superbly unstable connection~ =.= nid to download stuffs oso tak jadi~ sux.... oh yea...speaking of downloads.. recently i js downloaded this psp game called "Star Wars: Renegade Squadron".. with my "excellent" connection...it took me 3 hella days... =.= no...thats not the best part yet...the best part was....for a 1Gb game...it oni took me like..3hrs to finish it....haha...sad...

P/s: for u guys and gals who still didnt know bout this yet...i m going china this sunday and oni coming back next friday~ no no....not going there for olympics(neither seeing and participating) but js for a normal family trip~ =D

salah attachey department...

2008-08-12T04:55:00.000-07:00

arghhhhhhh~!! today had quite a bad day at the hospitl attachey~ =.= found out...the 1st thing in the morning that the HOD(head of department) of my department ask us to do presentation on the patients and a self-selected topic related to their department...WTH! dei~ mister HOD...i m having my precious annual-only-2-months-in-malaysia holiday~ and now u r giving us assignments to do?? sigh...sienzzz..

anyway...today i did see something interesting~ was actually observing an surgery on how they trying to fix in a long besi into somebody's broken leg...but...somehow got tired of seeing them keep drilling in the besi and keep changing it cos the positioning salah...haiz...so so...cabuted to the some other surgery room(illegally~ =D) and saw a caesarean section operation~ "it is a form of childbirth in which a surgical incision is made through a mother's abdomen (laparotomy) and uterus (hysterotomy) to deliver one or more babies. It is usually performed when a vaginal delivery would put the baby's or mother's life or health at risk" -quoted frm wikipedia- XD *lazy to tulis my own definition* was actually amazed by the doctor performing that operation... he potong the abdomen part so skillfully like how butcher do to meat... O.O stitching like a pro tailor nia~ *wish somehow i can be as skillful as that next time~* XD

somehow...i wish i could js change my department =.= but tak leh....ughhh~ nvm...another few more days to go nia~ yesh~!

first scribbling...

2008-08-10T08:29:00.000-07:00

Yes! i have finally..successfully..created this blog~ (am still a noob at this kinda things XD) so so...yoroshiku onegaishimasu~

monday...a day where most people dread of...and so do i~ having to get up early in the morning js for some stupid medical posting thingy~ luckily i oni had to do this for another 1 more week...no..i cant bear to lose my precious 2-months holiday js like tat~ XD

currently stucked in orthopaedic department(aka broken bones department)...god knows what a 2nd year med student like me is doing there when i dun even whats going on there~ =.= but sadly...hafta go back there again tmr...sigh...4 more days...and i shall be freeeee~ XD

here i shall end my 1st post..and hopefully..i will continue posting here~ XD

P/s: thx zz for helping me to design this blog~ =P