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Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

passing of another crossroad~

Trapped in the dark abyss
With the silent symphony playing endlessly
The only hope is lost itself
Or so I thought

Without a warning.. without a sign..
The darkness was broken apart
Blinding everything in its sight
Truth was its name, shining with all its might

Looking around aimlessly
Familiar roads are all I see
Recollecting my senses and my wits
Continues down this road just a bit

Being forsaken was a fault
Truth was oversight of a predilection
Worn out by this unforeseen journey
Loss of drive was the result

With no more crossroads in sight
One clear path was all up ahead
Turning back isn't allow in the play
The direction was evident as the way

Pitiful it may seems to be
Nevertheless understandings gained was aplenty
This gratitude I must show
For now the choice is up to me...

the solitudinous symphony~

Wandering around aimlessly..
Without a peek of light, lost is the only option..
Darkness covers the entire surrounding as though contrast doesnt exist...
Nothing but emptiness was around..
Nothing can be felt.. not even a single touch
Nothing can be heard.. not even you scream your lungs out
Nothing can be seen.. not even a tiniest bit of light
There isn't anywhere to go.. no exits..

Torn between right and desire..
Unable to cope up with the frustation building up inside..
Jealousy being the mastermind.. dissolving everything that's inside..
Stubbornly decided to chase 2 rabbits..
Disappointed with the foreseen results..
Here.. begging for another chance..
Though the end will be the same even if given another..
Pathetic..

No longer has anything to hold on to..
No longer has anything to believe in anymore..
No longer has anything to look forward to..

Troubling thoughts clouding the mind..
Jealousy burns the heart..
On the edge of losing everything.. Or did everything is already lost from the start?
Is it all just a coincidence? Or is it a curse that had to be beared?
Without a clue.. Maybe it is easier to leave everything behind before they are taken away..
Nothing's left besides this solitudinious symphony..
Its endless and soundless screams~

a new year...a new resolution~

HAPPIE NEW YEAR EVERYONE~!!! lol... yea...a new year...a new everything~ or not? anyway...i m sure everyone has their ups and downs for this new year...and that doesnt exclude me~ haha... well...things here hav been fine now tat the holiday has started~ XD *sigh* havent had a holiday for ages dy~ however...unfortunately..there is final coming soon... things havent been really easy...
so...js alil stressed out... haha wanna release some stress here~ XD
hmmm...i guess everyone has a time like this when..they js feel like telling everyone how they are feeling rite now...but js cant say it out ne? well..guess this time its me who has been feeling so lately.... therefore..wanna js spam it out loud here~ lol

As the time passes...we tend to look back at the past...the distance that we had travelled...
The long path that we took to come all the way here...never thought we would end up here...
Looking at myself now...never understanding where this path may lead me to... continues walking on this path...hoping...wishing silently that its the place that I saw in my dreams...my destination...
Whatever it may be...I had never regretted taking this path of mine... picked up a few lessons here and there... learning... understanding... how it feels to go through it all...
Getting through continuous hardships...endless tests & trials....
Failing and falling hard at times... so hard and deep that it could bring anyone down to their knees...and never be able to stand up again...
For there was this light...putting me back on my feet...reassuring me to continue my journey...making me believed that there is a worthwhile reward in the end...
Toughen up...I begin to continue to walk this path of mine...no longer afraid to fall or get hurt...as long as the light stays there for me...
Looking down the endless path down my way...its uncertain for sure what lies ahead of me...
This time...without a doubt...I'll strive for what I want...

ah~ *relief* finally able to let go of everything…been holding them inside for ages~ now feel alil more relieved~ haha~
anyway…will try to update my blog more often now~(lol…yea…js hope tat will happen) XD
and and…to all my frens out there…take k and good luck in ur upcoming exams~! Cheerz~!